What? More bad news?

What the fuck is going on?

Got a call form the clinic. Heart beat from yesterday's u/s was only 93. Which was low. I am scheduled to go in for another u/s next Thurday. And by that time I will be 8.4 weeks.

Why can't we ever get a break? I hope this is just a blip...

I'm afraid I have no tears left.

Why did this happen?

Do you want the good news first or the bad news?

Good news: We had our first u/s today at 7 weeks. Saw a sac, and tiny little thing that looked like a duck beat that turns out was the heartbeat. Yeah. Normally u/s don't happen until 18 weeks, so at 7 you could imagine it was small. 1/4" I think.
Yeah....Glad to know it's there! Sinking in a little deeper.

Fast fwd about 4 hours.

Got a call from dad at work, Grannie (aka: My best friend) was rushed to the hosiptal. Where we stayed with her for 3 1/2 hrs, until she took her last breath. My mum took it the hardest because she was the closest to her mother (out of her other 2 sisters). And DH and I took it pretty hard because we are really close with her. I just talked with her on Saturday, and made plans to make sausage next Thursday for Easter.

I don't understand why this happened? How could He take her from me/us?
I know it's selfish to ask her to stay with us any longer. 90 years was a long time, and I'm sure she was missing her DH and friends and parents too. But we had a date damn it! This is so unfair!

We love you Grannie. Say hi to Grandpa for us!

Sausage Time

Called Grannie this morning a few minutes ago to confirm we are making Easter sauage on Holy Thursday. It's a tradition her and I have.

She was so excited. I can't wait. She always has all the hard work done by the time I even get there..No wonder she's tired.

I fel bad, I called her early and think I woke her up. But she assures me I didn't.

A little scare

So as you've been reading.I've had a bit of brown spotting. Nothing for us to be too concerned about. I figured it was just the old blood making it's way out.

But today...I had a bit more of it. It was almost like fertile cervical mucus (egg white type) but dark brown. Yikes.
Posted a message on my Due in November message board, and everyone said that they had that in previous pregnancies. However, while waiting for their responses, I called the clinic just to make sure it wasn't something I needed to get checked out. And as I've said, I've had it before but wasn't really concerned.
The nurse from the clinic called back, and suggested just waiting until the u/s on Monday, since the blood was only brown. She asked if I had any other symptoms. Nope! I figured as much, but needed to ease my mind.

As for now? Well, I have a little bit of cramping, no more brown blood, and I feel nauseous. I feel like I want to puke, but don't. Maybe some soup will ease my tummy.

Still...come on....

Still sore breasts. Still have a bit of spotting. Mild cramps come and go. No bloating, no nausea, no cravings yet. Knock Knock.

Can't tell if I have fatigue as I am always tired anyways.

Just over a week until the u/s.

Hey worry wort....I'm talkin to you!

Well folks...it looks like I have some spoting again today. Brown again. Not too terribly worried. Well not enuf to call someone to find out. I'll wait it out until my u/s on March 30.

Not sure which is the worse waiting game. The 2 ww or this wait b/w when you find out you are pg and your first u/s. Sigh

Anyone else having some week 5 symptoms?

Thinking of taking some prenatal yoga courses.

My symptoms so far.

My breats are still sore. (But I like a little pain)

I have occassional cramping. (Except for last night, it was a major tummy ache)

Some very minimal mucus. (Almost like fertile mucus)

My face has totally broke out. (I pride myself on great skin)

And I am restless. (Maybe still from excitment)

Although perhaps I am still just over-analyzing how I am feeling, just waiting for the major symptoms to kick in as we are still in surreal stage.

No more pity parties here!

Got the blood work back from yesterday, today!

Numbers are at 2898. Not sure entirely what that means but I am guessing pretty good.

So now we wait....We have an u/s Mar 30.

Family Dr (GP) April 15 (Pre-natal)
OB April 24 (Pre-natal)

Until then...We are going to enjoy being pregnant.

ps - Breats are still really sore!

Here is a video that goes hand in hand with my past post many months back on dealing with infertility.

Beware: You WILL need a tissue.
http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html

Is it for real?

OMFG...We are pregnant, what do we do now?



Not sure it's really sunk in yet.

Mission....Possible

Got the results back, and we ARE pregnant.

Yippee...

5 years trying, multiple multiple tests, many BFN's...Freaking finally.

Not familiar with numbers but mine was 235. Nurse said it was good.

I go back in a week for another blood test.

Then March 30 for an u/s.

Yipee, Hooray!

Sign sign everywhere a sign....

Woke up with cramps today. SIGH

All symptoms/signs point to AF. FROWN

Keeping positive for tomorrow is blood test. YEAH

I need to stop thinking about symptoms, and be optimistic and hope for the miracle. I may already be pregnant.

Tune in tomorra...

Over analyzers Anonymous

It's been officially 2 weeks since our IUI or 14dpIUI...
I am reading into every symptom. Tired, hungry, break-outs, cramps, mood swings, feeling fat, etc...Trying to remember past period symptoms to compare, but am drawing a blank.

Still haven't POAS (Peed on a stick) yet. By all accounts AF should arrive today, but the day is almost over. Hoping she stays the bloody hell away.
Have blood work scheduled for Tuesday providing AF stays away.

WARNING - Graphic Information:
Every slight bit of leakage I feel down there, I am worried is AF, but it's just a thin milky leakage. Phew.

Perhaps I should just test...Then I wouldn't be so stressed. Or maybe I'll just wait for the blood work.

You just stay the fuck away Aunt Flo...YOU HEAR ME?!

Temptation

12dp IUI....
Resisting home pregnancy test temptation.

Sore breats still.

No more spotting.

Totally overanalyzing symptoms.

I will not test.

TMI...8dp IUI

So we are 8dp IUI, and my breats have been sore for the last couple of days, and now I've had some brownish discharge. I am having very mild cramps since the IUI (almost like gas rather).

Not trying to overanalyze things...Just hoping this isn't AF perparing for her arrival...

Until it's time to test or Aunt Flo makes he apperance...I will remain positive and hope this is early symptoms kicking in.

Will KYP...