To shave, or not to shave...

It's not like the Dr or nurses care if you shave or don't shave down there. But somehow it's just one of those things. Do I? Or don't I?

Since we were diagnosed with infertility W is pretty much ready to spread eagle for anyone wearing a white lab coat, so shaving is just one of the little things that she feels better doing.

Empathy is such a nice name....

Well if this is the way the day is gonna start, forget it, I'm going back to bed!

Turns out our appt wasn't at 8:30 am, it was at 9:30 am, and we didn't get in until 10:30 am.

Fast Fwd to after my rendezvous with a cold piece of metal machinery.

Had my first breakdown. Gathered myself and found H waiting in the waiting room. And broke down again. I told him that the Dr first asked why we came all the way down to the clinic to get the u/s; told him I have a cyst due to the clomid; told him the Dr is cancelling this IUI cycle until the cyst goes away; told him the Dr suggested just waiting until we get called back for IVF (Feb/Mar) because the travel, and IUI has only a 13% chance, is it worth it?

I'm sorry you cold heartless bitch. How can you say wait until IVF call backs when we clearly haven't even tried ANYTHING yet. And why did we come to the clinic here? Ummm...because your nurses told me to! And f$%^ clomid. I'm taking a break!

Fast Fwd to Check Out and after lunch.

The ride home was a long and quiet one. I wasn't in the mood for talking. On the way home a had a few minor breakdowns, but nothing I couldn't deal with.

We got home, unpacked, and had yet another breakdown. 100 things running through my mind:
Why us? We are good people...
If there really was a God...
Life is so unfair...

Today has made me a stronger person.
Today I'm closer to H more than I've ever been.
All our love and stay strong,

Tucan

xoxo

To sir, with love...

So we finally found out that we get to do an u/s tomorrow, CD11. I told the nurse when my spotty period started that I wanted u/s, as I didn't want to chance missing ovulation again. I've already finished taking the clomid double dose, a spotty period and got word that our u/s is for tomorrow at 8:30 AM? Can the nurses not see that we live out of town. And we'd have to leave at 5:00 AM just to make it to the clinic for our appt.
But...who are we to complain. At least we got an appt!

So we decided to drive up tonight, and stay in a hotel. So far we've spent how much?

Gotta go pack, shave(not like the Dr is gonna care if I'm shaved or not), and hit the road.

We'll keep you updated tomorrow with a live blog of our appt.

Two's just perfect, 3's a crowd

Talked to that friend of mine at work today to ask him if IVF was successful for them. It WAS...Yay!

But all 3 embryo's took. That means they are around 8 weeks and somebody's got to make a decision. What that means is that his W runs the risk of complications to both herself and the babies if she carries 3. Their decision would be to reduce the fetus' to 2. That's not only a hard decision to make it's a moral one. But please for their sake, leave God out of it. Those lucky enuf to get pregnant without help, don't and wouldn't understand.

I don't envy them, but we hope they will make the right decision for everyone.

UFC 91

What the hell? Did anyone else notice Damien Maia and Nate Quarry lip lock? Maybe by accident?
And now Brock Lesnar wins another match.

I have to admit that he proved to be a bit more talented than the last time I saw him, when all he did was dry hump his opponent.

I was a little disappointed at his last fight. When Lesnar grabbed the mic out of Rogan's hand WWF style. And started lassoing around the octagon. Doesn't look good in UFC. UFC is a professional sport! Leave the acting to the WWF.

But this go around he seemed a bit more professional. Maybe somebody got into trouble...

Shh! Don't tell

It's our nephew's first birthday party today. It was a small, but yet big enough birthday party for him....What a cutie!

How I can't wait to have one of our own! While we had fun at the party, inside it was a bit difficult for me. Don't tell H but I cried a little once we got home. Just needed to do a little crying by myself today.

Well off to watch UFC at the pub!

You back again?

Seems as I am riding the crimson wave again today. Weird.

So in consultation with the nurse we decided that we were going to take this scarcity as my period, and I am to start taking clomid today until Nov 18.

And on CD11 (Nov 22) I am scheduled for an u/s at the clinic. What are the odds that would happen on a weekend. Phew! Guess it's going to be an early morning, but never-the-less ROAD TRIP

This is becoming frustrating, from a woman who has regular periods to weird and off beat ones.

Where did you go?

Well now, that's odd!

Seems as though my period is non-existant today. Seems a good of time as any to call the clinic.

A bug by any other name....

...Would be called the flu.

And it looks like W finally picked up the flu bug. She hasn't been sick since 2006.

But on the positive note...Aunt Flo came to visit. On to TTC.

Lest we Forget

Let us on this day remember those veterans who fought in the World Wars. Joining the army back in the day was your duty, not a choice. And for that...to be forced out of your home, away from your family to perform your call of duty for your country needs to be remembered.

W is lucky enuf that both her Grandfather's were not able to be called to duty, due to illnesses.

H grandfather was killed during the war whilst on leave. Grandmother remarried to another officer. Other Grandfather did not go to war.

Check out Veteran Affairs Canada

Where are you?

So now I am on CD 30 and no sign of Aunt Flo yet. Damn clomid!

Still Dirty at 30...

It's W birthday today. The big 30. Welcome to cougar land.

And ps - Aunt Flo is suppose to arrive today.

Doom and Gloom?

With this economic recession we are in and about to be pulled father in I'd like to do my venting now!

So what's with all this talk about GM asking the Government to basically bail them out. I'm sorry, but I as a tax payer say NO FREAKIN WAY.

You've made the bed, now you lay in it. How are the taxpayers responsible for bailing out a company because of bad choices their Executives made. I'm sorry but that's not our problem. I bet you the top Executives are still making over a million a year.

Life is full of choices and we shouldn't have to pay because of someone elses' mistakes. Accountability anyone?


We haven't hit a recession since the 80s, and I don't think it fairs well. People are going to be more prone to judge, blame, lie, cheat.

A little bit of sunshine in my life

So we talked to the clinic about possibly getting set up for u/s and b/w. What they had to do is check with the Doctor. The clinic prefers to go 2 + cycles before performing and u/s and b/w. I'm sorry but you know what....I was a regular cycle gal. I had no problems ovulating before all this clomid.

Stayed tuned...