So no one can explain why?

Well since I just had just rode the crimson wave on September 15, I still have to wait another 2 weeks until aunt flo visits again. And let me tell you that hubby and I have never been so excited to have her arrive.
Who has ever been excited to have their period? Except that 16 year old bimbo who decided to have a one night stand, and a late period. But for us this may be the start of our new life....Let's explain...

So on Thursday we finally had our IVF (In-Vitro Fertilization) information session. 2 hours later we left full of information and ready to cash in our RSP and life savings! Did you know that it would cost about $10K CDN to have the IVF procedure done? (That's all said and done). $10K for one miracle baby, and even then there is no guarantee that a baby would be conceived.

So Friday morning came early, and we had to drive to the clinic to get a bunch of test done. Hubby got to 'deposit' at 8:00 in the morning, while I had someone poking and prodding me in every way imaginable. They get all the fun!

We met with the Dr. and explored our options. Upon all discussions with Dr, our first attempt would be IUI. Basically they take the washed sperm and squirt it up into my uterus to help us get pg.

Costs are substantially lower with IUI. It would only be $400 CDN each try. We will reamin on the IVF wait-list (5-6 mths) and we will attempt IUI next month when aunt flo comes to visit, hence our excitment.

So maybe come October our emotional roller-coaster may be over. We aren't holding our breath, but we can't help but glow with excitment that we may finally be on our way to coneiving our fist child.

We do realize our chances of getting pregnant with IUI are only 13% but that's a hell of a lot better than the 1% we have right now. We understand that IUI may not work, and we will consider IVF once we'd had several attempts at IUI.

We do have a lot to discuss, as $10K is a lot of money to spend on something that has no guarantee of working. But our chances are much greater (46-50%). Our last hope....

The Dr on Friday told us that what we are experiencing is called unexplained infertility. That means that all my software checks out, as does hubbys' but there isn't a real reason as to why we aren't able to conceive. That alone is very difficult to come to terms with. Makes one wonder why we continue to have hope and pray that a little one would come along....

We have to pay $10K to conceive a child when there are men and women out there getting pregnant from one night stands who actually don't want a child and others who are unfit parents who beat their children. Life seems unfair most of the time, but with a positive outlook karma will come to our rescue. That we are sure of...

We'll keep you posted on this roller-coaster we call our life...

All our love,

Tucan

xoxo

The first step...

We might as well just bear our life here on our blog for everyone to read, it seems to be a good place to do so. And while doing so we will take you through our roller coaster we call our life...

I suppose there is no need to discuss what we've been through in the past...so we'll just talk about our future and go forward from this day... But in case you are wondering...A few sperm samples, a few ultrasounds, a few vaginal ultrasounds, much too much blood work, and the most fuckin painful thing in the world, an HSG!

So the first step to what you ask?

Well we have been trying to concieve for well over 4 years now, and no such luck. But luckily we have our first appointment at a Fertility Clinic. It isn't in our hometown, it's actually just a 3 hours drive to another city. The wait time was a lot shorter than where we live. So what does that mean?

We aren't exactly sure ourselves...We are going for some ultrasounds, and semen analysis', and then after tests, and an info session on IVF, we will meet with the specialist there to discuss our options. We've read the pamplets on IVF and it is quite costly. (Makes you wonder what we pay health care for)! So hopefully our first option will be IUI, as it's a heck of a lot cheaper.

We don't know what to expect, but we are both excited to hear the options, and in the mean time we don't mind the trying part. ;-)

We've been having a tough time dealing with the whole infertility thing. We don't talk to our family about it, nor our collegues, nor our friends because not everyone understands infertility. There are a lot of ignorant people out there.
How do push on? Well the internet is a powerful thing. And there are many other couples going through the same problem as us. It's so nice to have a support group online that can talk about the same problems, and support eachother...

I guess that's all we need to post now. We'll check in with you all tomorrow if there is anything of note to mention.

All our love,
Tucan
xoxoxo

Alice in Wonderland

I just heard....H just told me. Tim Burton is remaking Alice in Wonderland. The 1985 mini series has to be my favorite. It's a little dark, it's fun, it's a musical, and the cast is incredible....

Lewis Carroll, Helena Bonham Carter, and Johnny freaking Depp....2010. What more can we ask for?